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Missing the Boat

Tuesday, June 2, 2015

This is one of those posts where Im most likely going to ramble a bit so feel free to check out at anytime. This is the post that Im writing because I felt the pull to write one and although my initial thought was to finally get the post up about our DIY planked floors, when I went to write it and then edit my photos I realized that my Lightroom membership had expired and now will take sometime in the next 24 hours to start up again! UGH. 
But I thought, Im going to write something anyway. Which leads me to this...staying focused on the goal while everything seems to be swirling around you. 
I have a major goal and one that I have prayed daily about....Oh, please God lead me down the path that is best for my family. Not the one that I think I want, but the one that will make me a better wife, mother, friend. 
I've been working a regular full time job from my home for the past four years and although it can be rewarding it is not where my passion lies. I want to be creative. I want to be around creatives. I want to create and be imaginative and use this gift that God gave me to create something better. I want to make everything around me beautiful and functional and comfortable. Not just in my own home but for others too. I will do this, I am doing this. But this is the thing. I am still working my full time job which has been a real challenge in balancing it all. 
 My husband is my greatest support and he has pushed me and convinced me to give up the full time gig during the day and go full force with my styling services. It scares me a little but Im doing it. 
Life is too short. Something that has been a constant reminder for me as of late. 
So, I'm now in the final stretch of my last days with my full time job while still being a mommy and a wife with everything that comes with it. I am also staying up late working on this little design business, trying to find time to blog with something worthy of you reading it. 
It can be exhausting but so liberating and exciting at the same time. I can't remember the last time I felt this happy. 
But there are those days when I feel like I'm missing the boat. Like I waited too long and it left me on the dock. I unknowingly allow myself fall into the swirling abyss of my own mind where I think I'm too late. But then I have to remind myself that this is my one life and I have to make it wonderful!
So as I write this little motivational message to myself to stay focused, stay positive, don't allow my own mind to make me feel like the possible is impossible, I hope it will give you a little push to do what God is calling you to do.
What it is that makes your soul sing out loud! That one thing that you have hesitated to do because your mind has tried to convince you that you missed the boat! Oh friend, there are so many more boats!! 
Hang in there, I'm not alone, you are not alone. We so easily get discouraged by the perceptions of what others are doing and how they are holding it together so perfectly. We so quickly convince ourselves of these things just by looking at one glossy image that was strategically placed on our Instagram feed. Oh you know what I'm talking about. 
I needed this pep talk, I hope it helped you too. 
Have a wonderful day my friend and stay are amazing, you will be amazing at whatever you chose to do. You haven't missed the boat.  
7 comments on "Missing the Boat"
  1. Thank you for this. It was needed. The hardest step is the jump to start.
    Here's to taking risks!

  2. Oh Anissa, I loved reading this! I love your prayer "Oh, please God lead me down the path that is best for my family. Not the one that I think I want, but the one that will make me a better wife, mother, friend." Prayers for you as you transition into fun job mode! ;)

  3. Wishing you much success in your dreams, from the everyday at home ones to the ones that can sometimes seem out of reach. I know this too. I too work full time and need to. I am five years from an early retirement and I would love to have something in place that is both creative and will continue to provide the other income that we need.

  4. This post really hit home. I am struggling with this same issue right now. I work full time, and while the pay and the title is "rewarding," it doesn't even come close to making my heart happy. My true passion lies with being creative, and working with like-minded people. Love design, DIY, crafting and everything else. You are so right, You are not alone, and neither am I. I found a quote this morning that I put up in my office at work - "if you can't stop thinking about it, don't stop working for it." that is exactly what i am going to do..... THANK YOU!

  5. i know exactly how you feel. when i look at my life, i feel like i've finally figured out what i'm good at and might enjoy. and i've spent the years raising the kids, and feel it's time for me. but then i think, "i'm 41 ... can i really reinvent and start over now?" especially with a fourth-grader who still needs me, and a husband who travels. that doesn't leave much time for me to focus on me. and by the time the fourth grader is independent, i'll be nearly 50. and then it's REALLY too late. but at what point do i get to live MY life? i so get where you are coming from. i feel like i'm always running after that boat, and it's constantly juuuuuust pulling out of dock before i can get to it. and i don't want to sit in my rocking chair at 80 and say, "shoot. i never made it to the boat." and i'm rambling. but i get it. i so, so get it. if you can go for it, go for it.

  6. Anissa, I want to encourage you, since you have encouraged me. I have only done a design question with you, and you were incredibly insightful and helpful. You ARE very talented, and relatable, which makes me think you have certainly chosen the right passion to follow. I am excited for you and love the fact that I can get design advice from you when I get stuck!!! I wish you the joy in the endeavor!